Deep down, if I could have checked out, I would have. The thought of having to live, to be alive, was deeply tiring, a burden.
The miracle is I’ve got to 56 years of age despite wondering:
Why is it a privilege to be alive?
Why can’t I feel it?
Why does everyone else seem to know or have something I don’t…
… I’d better pretend I do, too. My life felt like a sham.
Does this ring a bell for you? If so, WELCOME. It’s OK – you are not alone.
The great news is I can declare – I now have moments when I do Enjoy Being Alive. And they are so delicious, it’s worth staying for more.
What was the turning point?
A key one was when I heard fully that there is a third response when you’re scared – Fight, Flight and FREEZE.
Could it be I was trapped in ice: my numbness was in fact a freeze response? And the reason I’d go into pain following any care, was the ice was cracking open as I was thawing? It was physically and emotionally painful. I could feel the blood going into areas, little by little – just like when you get up having knelt for too long. Was I also releasing old pains trapped in the ice, as fresh as the day they were frozen? Could be.
No wonder I felt I was Wrong, doing something Wrong, going the Wrong way with all this pain. Was it ever going to stop?!
If any of this resonates with you, welcome. You’re on the Right path – you’re here and we can journey a while together. Using energy techniques, you can try out for yourself what works for you, let go of old pains – and relish the utterly unique human being you are.
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